luvtoro

2005-07-20T23:40:00.000-07:00

hey peeps!

moved blog to:

see u there...

2004-11-08T13:03:00.000-08:00

look at your left!! ha! it's GINO and qiaoqiao! they r so cute rite?... haha more photos up to come! click for bigger version!

so sweet~ JR and qiaoqiao~

hee... my 2 cute lovers!! GINO and JR

"zi jin zhi dian" main leads...

2004-11-01T11:55:00.000-08:00

hey before u read this, rmb to scroll down!! as usual... ambrose is there!! wahahah...

well the UWC visit went unexpectedly nice! i was so fascinated by the culture and spirit they are fostering there... cool~ my grp had rachel and sarah, one frm kenya andthe other from italy. all of them r so cool! dey look so mature when they r actually only 2 to 3 years older than us! dey speak so fluently and confidently too! make me jealous...

those hu dint go really miss the fun!and their boarding house totally rox! come on... look at ours... ugh... i mean ours is not too bad bud as compared to theirs, it's really way below standard :|

how i hope to go there as well... bud i guess i'm the kind hu cannot take challenges. facing such a new environment with so many new and diff ppl is a great challenge to me. i wont be able to handle the pressure... although i would love such an env.. am i very contradicting?? nvm... UWC ROX!! maybe an attachment? dat i might consider... it's juz so cool being there~

and they are not juz books-muggers! dey have so much more to do besides ur lactic acid, newton's laws, oxidation, logarithms and stuff! they learn to do things independently... i guess dat's wad the IP is moving towards... but i think IP still has way to go.. we r still so mark and textbook-based.. "life is not juz about exams"! right??

whoa... i was rilly inspired... dey have dreams to make a difference in their country... big dreams... dat inspired me to want to do something as well... :)

lastly, i would like to remind everybody that: AmBrOsE is gorgeous! :P (and dun forget to scroll down!)

2004-10-28T19:48:00.000-07:00

i wanted so much to blog! bud dat will mean dat my dear ambrose photos will be pushed back!! omg... so i muz remind everybody now... scroll down!! ambrose awaits u there! make sure your heart is strong enough to take that gorgeous smile of his! :)

hey everyone school's over! (if not for the freaking UWCvisit tmr, i'll be even happier!) and it's in the afternoon somemore... sianz. waste my wonderful afternoon. and seah-er is so pissed off in the LT that day that she actually said things like bloody hell and stuff... tell me who will not be scared of her :|

yesterday's film festival was ok but i rilly dislike the venue... wanted to sleep bud my neck hurt like siow! dunno how 2 position also... and by the way, SIA day was a total failure! they made it sound grand but it turned out that the audi was half empty... and even the half of it was filled up by US! crap. lucky i'm not presenting in the audi it wud be damn embarassing...

damn! atan juz came in and told us to go audi... for wat!?! crap!!!!!!!!!

2004-10-27T10:11:00.000-07:00

my new life begins here!! with 许绍洋 xu shaoyang... he's soooooooo cute!!! lavender rox~ juz realise dat he's actually frm hong kong and been overseas for 13years.. yeah... no wonder he speaks such fluent and usa accented english~ whoa~

2004-10-25T16:52:00.000-07:00

2004-10-21T13:07:00.000-07:00

my dearie lin feng and yexuan... michelle and raymond foreva!

so sweet~

2004-10-21T12:25:00.000-07:00

yoz~ bloggie... 我回来了!!

haha... eoy's over and the results r out too~ i did badly for SA... really bad... but overall i'm contented already... (without somparing with the rest of my class..)

i dun belong in 3/3 at all... both my results and attitude towards learning... well i might not be the only one... but i'm definitely one of these ppl.. crap! let me get out of this place pls!! i always feel so depressed in 3/3... low self-esteem (haha)... everyone is lyk so much better... falling out of place...

i always tell myself that well, this is 3/3. i shudn't be so bothered when i'm comparing to 3/3! buden sometimes u juz cant stand it... :(

nvm... chiannie! CHEER UP CHIANNEE! it's ok... i'm NOT a failure...

haha i shall post some lyrics here... i luv this one...

外婆她的期待
慢慢变成无奈
大人们始终不明白
她要的是陪伴
而不是六百块
比你给的还简单

外婆她的无奈
无法变成期待
只有爱才能够明白
走在淡水河衅
听着她的最爱
把温暖放回口袋

记得去年外婆的生日
表哥带我和外婆参加她最最重视的颁奖典礼
*结果却拿不到半个奖
不知该笑不笑
我对着镜头傻笑
只觉得自己可笑*
*我难过却不是因为没有得奖而难过
我失落是因为看到外婆失落而失落*
大人们根本不能体会表哥他的用心
好像随他们高兴就可以彻底的否定

否定我的作品
决定在于心情
想坚持风格他们他们就觉得很欢乐
没惊喜没有改变我已经听了三年
我告诉外婆我没输
不需要改变
表哥说*不要觉得可惜
这只是一场游戏*
只要外婆觉得好听
那才是一种鼓励
外婆露出了笑容说她以我为荣
浅浅的笑容就让我感到比得奖它还要光荣

what a nice phrase... 不要觉得可惜, 这只是一场游戏. so true... can i tell everyone this??

2004-09-15T01:55:00.000-07:00

haiz... i'm not loving toro liaoz... why did he have to do dat?!! did he know that he disappointed all his fans! sad... :(

actually frankly i feel dat he's changed alot ever since he left energy and joined jungiery. a lot of ppl around me noticed dat too. both bad and good. he has bcum more confident but at the same time, no longer the cute and innocent him and sometimes even arrogant... i feel bad whenever i'm saying these bcoz i'm like talking bad of my most beloved one...

i dun wan to be lidat!!! urrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhh HELP ME!!!!!! i'm dying from this dilemma!!

haha btw, i chose C Lit for my humans nxt year! hope there's enuff ppl... yeah~ it rox~ wonder ead SHE'll feel haha~ who cares anyway?? >.<

woohoo the deearie frankie da ren is here liaoz!!!!! gtg... miss me pinkie!!!

things to do:
~remember to forget toro~
~remember to love tian liang~

2004-09-07T11:00:00.000-07:00

HALO EVERYBODY!!!

super long nv blog liao horh... paiseh la... heez.. been busy these few weeks.. actually i oso dunno wad i doing.. nice template rite?? the original pic was quite cute.. "wo jin tian hen pink" dat one.. but tian liang's mei li is too strong liao.. lolz

wah.. suddenly so many ppl tagged huh?.. rare ppl huh... haha.. so weird.. when i blog nobody come.. when i dont.. ppl come and ask me to blog!! hmmmmp...

first time go home so late leh me... half of sep hols passed liao.. going home THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW... wahahah... my bio SIA totally rox!! yeah... go to www.geocities.com/commoncancers/info_index.htm and have a look~ not comleted yet... the completed version will be uploaded some time end of this week kae! support!!

2004-08-26T00:27:00.000-07:00

i love bOoNsAk pOnSaNa!

he totally rox~

2004-07-21T16:10:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHDI !!! 21st July is your birthday! we will ALWAYS LOVE YOU~ energy power!

hmmm... like quite long nv post liao hor... saw pin blogging... motivated to blog oso.. muahahaz.

finding songs to download but still cant find dat song! irritating! i still have math portfolio 2 complete but i dun care liao... doing crap now... haiz sian ah!!! 2 SIAs over le... 3 left... muz jia you lor~

realised dat actually leslie cheung's songs quite nice leh... his voice oso v nice... i'm starting 2 admire him more n more le... dumbo frankie sitting opposite me now. very irritating. like very dancy lidat. kept on tapping his feet... act stylish. yucks! changed his hair style liao... cant stand it man! so e xin~ =P... yesterday looked like beckham lidat... (tried to but failed) 2day slightly better... not so "cock" liao...

haha 3/8 hav another weird weird tcher... teach ss one... woohoo! saw him frm far dat day... dint look quite alright muahahahahaha... congrats to 3/8 man!! surprisingly dey din block msn! juz found out 2day and logger in... omg! straight away hang! almost 20 over "request" popped up! too long nv sign in liaoz... almost 1 year if i'm not wrong.

kae shall go to find songs liao... buaiz buaiz

2004-07-07T00:43:00.000-07:00

ou de yang's songs are so nice! whea~ hope dat he will look juz as nice and sweet as his songs~ dun disappoint me haha...

hmmm... this is my newest lovers pai hang bang...

1 tOrO
2 dOu ZhI kOnG
3 ShOw
4 fRaNk LaMpArD

been sick for 4 and a half days... so tong ku.. and hw crashing down... grrrrr... life in ny sux. life in my claz sux too. it's crazy.

2004-07-01T00:15:00.000-07:00

still hafta say....

****************
1 David James
2 Gary Neville
3 Ashley Cole
4 Steven Gerrard
5 John Terry
6 Sol Campbell
7 David Beckham
8 Paul Scholes
9 Wayne Rooney
10 Michael Owen
11 Frank Lampard
****************
~England team'euro2004 rox foreva~
and i will remember that... foreva~

2004-06-29T23:41:00.000-07:00

2004-06-29T00:02:00.001-07:00

ha! tell u something rilly funny my dad told me...

my dad was driving halfway den he did something dat is sort of against the rule (i dunno wad exactly it was but it's not really serious i think) den this policeman stopped him. u noe in msia, police dun rilly wan to fine u... if dey fine u everything goes to the govt and dey get nothing u see... all they want is "duit kopi" (meaning bribe)...

so my dad showed the police his "reporter identification card" (my dad works as an ACCOUNTANT in this newspaper publisher, not a REPORTER! but he simply showed him this stupid card dat sort of represents reporter -_-") below is the conversation:

"sorry la... i'm a reporter of XXX newspaper ma..."

"reporter SO WHAT?!"

"um have to rush to somewhere to get news ma... so have to be fast ma... sorry la... i'll not repeat k..."

(the police gave him this super -_____-" look) den...

"aiya go la go la go la!!"

haha i guessed dat police was quite dumb... if i were him i wouldn't have let my dad slip off juz for dat stupid reason... hah. probably he couldn"t think of anything to say except -________-"

whoa~ got myself a pair of new specs but dun quite like it... feeling dizzy... when i changed specs last 2 times there weren't such prob oso wad... dunno y this time lidat... like i'm seeing everything too clearly liao... lol *O*

oh one more joke here:

0 met 8 and said: come on... admit u're fat la... still want to wear belt...

1 met B and said: wah few days never see... u went to enlarge boob ah??!

B met D and said: omg!!! u got breast cancer?? how come only 1 left?!

***muahahahaaa*** ps: I LOVE TORO~~~

2004-06-27T04:33:00.000-07:00

this is football...

Depressed. This is going to be a long entry. Too much to say.

England lost... a stupid way of losing... If they lose within the 90min i have nothing to say... but penalties! I think penalties is a really bad and dumb way of determining who wins and who loses... it is not fair at all! There is not much skills involved... plain luck if u ask me. anyway that was the best match dat i've ever watched in my whole life... at least it's worth my sacrifice of 3hours sleep...

Owen scored at the third minute...~ a nice one~ he's alone with 2 defenders... but managed to get it in too. Whoooo owen!!! his first goal after 3 matches... i was quite worried dat portugal might equal it out since there was still a long long way to go. But england's defend was superb... but the bad thing is dat dey hardly have any striking movement... and they only had around 40% of ball possesion.

and roonie, england's soul was injured and replaced by this EXTREMELY DUMB LOOKING darius vassel!!! (not dat i hate his look or wat... but he rilly cant play well... i wonder how did he get chosen as a national player, a striker somemore) and somehow their coach chose to substitute gerrard and scholes out of the game!!! at this key moment... 3 key players out... replaced by 3 extremely slow and useless ones.

can see dat they were getting a bit out of control but the defend was still quite strong... eng was 10 minutes away from victory... n den portugal scored... 1-1. five min before the game... campbell managed to get the ball in... from a beckham corner kick. i was screaming away but a few seconds later... thanks to the referee... he said it was not allowed!! wth. my heart sank again.

nvm... silver goal extra time... i was kind of hoping dat dey end it here... i cant take penalties... my heart is not strong enuff for dat.. portugal scored. at the 19th minute. The whole stadium was roaring away but i felt like crying... 25th minute... Lampard!!! told ya he rox~ his reaction was so fast...

a beckham corner-kick... a terry head-catch... followed by the lampard got-the-ball-and-turn-around shoot. Perfect! Dat sort of brought me back to my senses... i was screaming deep in my heart... happy dat dey have got an equaliser... but worried for wat's coming ahead if neither team scored in the last 5min. penalties.

But at least there was still hope... again destroyed shortly after the game resumed. Beckham put all the england fans down. I rilly have nothing to say if the ball is saved by the goalkeeper... everything falls back onto luck den. But i can never stand ppl not even getting the ball into the right direction to the goalpost when it turns out that he is right in front of the goalpost...

maybe he's too used to free kick... but dats not a good excuse for kicking the ball high up into the air when he clearly knows dat he is taking a PANALTY!! Maybe he's de first one to go... quite a lot of pressure on him... i can see from his expression dat he himself couldn't believe wat he has juz done. Felt sorry for him but at the same time, disappointment.

Den portugal's third goal from rui costa brought me back to life again... he's another dumbo after beckham. anyway dat was definitely good news for me. everything went fine (lampard's penalty was perfect... right into the middle of the goalpost, free and easy) they even went into extra penalties. den i started to worry when i saw this dumb guy walking on to take the penalty. 23 Vassel.

I had a very bad feeling dat he's going to mess everything up. Told u he's not a good player at all... true enough. The ball was saved by ricardo. I knew straight away dat there would be no hope anymore... first, it's rilly hard to have anymore off-to-the-sky kicker from either team, not at this key moment. they knew better wad to do. second, it's also hard to save a penalty... luck again.

I dint have much time to think... not even seeing clearly who the next taker is... den de portugese were cheering away... i knew immediately wad happened. I feel like kicking vassel's a** but come to think of it, isnt it all beckham's fault?! If he had got the ball in... there wasn't even a need 4 extra penalties. Wad a captain.

See... itz not fair! Penalties = luck. To me, their loss dint matter very much except dat it meant dey had to leave portugal earlier. honestly i dun think they would made it into the finals even if they got through the portugal barrier. Neither denmark nor netherlands was easy to be fooled.

I could hardly sleep after dat... the scenes kept playing in mind... thinking about wad has juz happened. (my parents jokingly said dat i'm wu ya zui for saying vassel's going to mess things up coz it came true.) never in my life have i watched a match with my heart rising and sinking and went rising again den sinking and rising and sinking... lucky it's still strong enough.

England has already won.
coz to me, penalties is a load of rubbish, it doesn't mean skills at all.

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1 David James
2 Gary Neville
3 Ashley Cole
4 Steven Gerrard
5 John Terry
6 Sol Campbell
7 David Beckham
8 Paul Scholes
9 Wayne Rooney
10 Michael Owen
11 Frank Lampard
****************
~England team'euro2004 rox foreva~

2004-06-22T06:53:00.000-07:00

living hell

holiday's coming to an end... dat's not the worst yet.. the worst is that i haven done anything for hw yet... not dat i dun wan to do... but bcoz i have no idea wad to do at all... a lot of these are SELF-INITIATED... when me myself is not so. perhaps 10% of it done only... i dunno how am i going to survive the few days when school reopens... i have a feeling dat this time i really wont survive... not so lucky already... seriously, nothing very impt is done during this holiday... oh no!!!

i'm starting to worry already. is dat a good thing?? i dont know. meib i'm not suitable for ip at all. i am neither creative nor self-initiated. to me, dat is the worst thing about ip...

i am getting a lot moodier these few days... thinking about wad my room will look like without me living in it for one whole month! i bet she is going to make it worse dan a rubbish dump! thinking about how all these holiday homework will crash down on me when school starts on Monday... thinking about how bad i will miss here, malaysia, when i sit in the room, feeling extremely lonely at night... everything is so bad...

i cried last night... for wad i dunno. juz feeling moody... worrying about all those stuff... how i will have to wait for another 10 weeks b4 i can temporarily get away from that crazy world... the world here is so much better. i dun really have to do anything. but is dat good... at least it is when i need a short break.

When i am there… i feel like i’m living everyday with no meaning. i see no meaning in it at all... except the times when i’m with my gang... cracking lame jokes, watching vcds in the late night, chatting about all the stuff i love to chat about… i juz want to get away frm dat crazy world... dat crazy class... dat crazy room... dat crazy adventure. can i... juz a short little while please...

2004-06-21T23:20:00.000-07:00

hooooooooooray~

england has made it to the quarters!! rocks~
i love frank lampard!!! ^_^

2004-06-16T05:46:00.000-07:00

... cracking up a poem for english SIA... i dun think i have any LITERARY DEVICES in it at all... dun care...

went to popular this afternoon to look 4 the book dat i saw last week... it's named something like the family health reference book. it talks about our bodies and some problems in it etc. (btw, i noe some of u are going to say dat i'm mad 4 trying to read such a chim book... and u might think dat my ambition is to become some doctor or so... but it's not. in fact the book is very interesting... quite rarely have i developed an interest in this area) anyway back to it... when i saw it last week there was a 50% discount so it's quite cheap... around RM30...

buden i didn't buy coz i thought i had 2 go home n consider first. so i went back today... to find dat there IS NO MORE DISCOUNT.. got a shock of my life.. which means dat dat is going to cost me RM60! hello??? RM30 difference!! i was so kik.. urggghh.. i stupidly asked the worker if there's a 50% discount, knowing what the answer would be... and the person was giving me a sort of cant-u-read-the-price-tag look... like i was some sort of dumbo who was buying things for the first time in her life.

Urrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhh!!! no i'm not exactly angry at her but at myself... y have i not bought it last week?? well i was even told off by my mum for not wanting to buy it when she offered to last week... hello??? i was trying to save her money k!? coz i was worrying dat i'll juz dump it aside when i start reading a few pages... i regret it so much now...

whooo~ finally finished re-reading hp and the goblet of fire... when i read towards the end when the truth reveals, i couldn't really recall what happened at the front part of the book... o_O it’s juz too thick!! hmmmp i still think dat the 3rd book is the nicest. hermione rox. krum kinda rox too... miss his -oh, vat vas happening- and his –hi, hermi-o-ninny- muahahaha… but since harry and ron dint like him too much, i shouldn't too...

sighz... dun feel like saying anything after the heart-attacking book incident... going off liaoz.. buaiz.

*** i miss toro... but missing toro is a happy thing to do... ^_^

2004-06-15T00:43:00.000-07:00

2 weeks nv update liao.. so gotta give u abit of my updates... been enjoying the hols since i haven get to pile of hw yet...
-chem product
-physics sia (individual)
-physics sia (group)
-math journals (6 altogether)
-el/ss sia.. dreadful....

and not much time left now... and i still hav to practise piano...

yoohoo.. watched harry potter!!! but ppl were saying dat was the worst our of the 3... though i don quite agree.. it’s well... really short and brief... but the climax part is rilly u know... make u feel tensed and "climaxic" hah... i love hermione!!! N ron was so cute!! Wad i dun like bout it was it dint talk about the quidditch cup... gryffindor was suppose to win the cup this year!! Its so significant... but they juz left it out... and it dint rilly follow the book much.. hmmmp... haha i even re-read the 3rd book before going into the cinema coz i almost forgot wad it’s about...

still looking 4 table lamp and fan. table lamp seems to be easy to find though... much easier dan fa. i cant find one to be put on my table and yet not taking up a lot of space.. maybe i was being too choosy.. nv mind about that first..

juz recently.. i found huo jian hua and dou zhi kong quite cute. esp doudou.. he is a new singer i guess. he looks rilly rilly cute.. and muscular~ whoo~ hope he’s releasing his album soon. i’m definitely going for it. hmm shud i buy K ONE’s OST... i’m rilly troubled... i dunno if i should buy.. got toro, yujie, darren, gino and all dat... should i??? and should i buy the 2 previous hp series vcds? Quite cheap i saw yesterday.. only RM14.90 for one. but i noe i’m definitely buying the 3rd one when it comes out..

juz saw a news on online yesterday.. bout the new drama of toro... so stupid.. he's juz a "side-dish"… kehlehfeh.. n love triangle wif idiotic xiaoqiao and fiona xie somemore!! grrrrrr... why? why? why? i’d rather he’s a g**...... n yujie is super side-dish!! they gave all the channel8 ppl leading roles. hate it. hope to meet toro while he’s filming in spore!! woohoo~ *_*

the match on monday morning.. i woke up at 2.45am to watch.. juz 2 catch a glimpse of owen and beckham... actually i oso dunno y coz i’m not rilly crazy of them... juz okay.. the game was rilly unexpected… how can they score 2 goals in elss den 3minutes time?? which was during the extra injury time?? beckham dint grab hold of the penalty chance he has got… or else it would be a tie, at least. Hafta admit that france win fair n square... eng was getting abit dirty esp dat roonie guy… can see dat he was quite rough n bad-tempered... almost got into a fight. now i found this another guy who was quite zai – lampard. Frank lampard. weird name though. He looked quite okay and he scored for england!! though much help from beckham’s free kick.. haha.

something bad now.. i lost both my uncle and auntie in 1 month’s time... can anyone believe this? both... gone... maybe they are destined to be together even till their deaths... it’s a bit too hard on their children i guess... i've nv witnessed death so close to me.. right in front of me. witnessed her last breath right... and i nv knew i could cry so much for her.. coz i didn’t like her toooo much. it was just ok. terrible. life is fragile.. u cant deny this.

2004-05-30T22:15:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday’s performance was quite successful i guess… ppl say i perform well.. haha… thanks for the encouragement….

I had that stupid makeup for 9 hours!!! From 11 something all the way until 9pm!! Can u believe it?? It was kinda disgusting bud u get used to it after a while… but i feel sorry for my skin…

We had lunch den after dat was the real makeup… as in eyeshadow, lipstick all that sort… and that stupid hongkong guy was so irritating.. he must have thought that his chinese was FABULOUS and was commanding us all the time… bleahx. His pose was so obscene k… like trying to do what lidat…so near to us some more… utterly disgusted… *_*

Anyway thanks to him we had so much fun imitating his chinese accent… haha feeling evil but it was funny!!

After all the changing we waited quite some time den it was the real thing but dun really feel anything cos very few ppl for the 3.30pm show… only like 1/5 full… we performed quite ok buden the worst part is we didn’t manage to appear on time for the 2nd scene… so embarrassing and i hated the few ppl who kept on complaining but did nothing!! K that’s the end.

I nearly died lor… feel so itchy and painful and that stupid headband was so tight!! I almost gave up and asked huiyi to go on stage instead…

k… dinner… den change again… didn’t wait for quite long… den its already 7.30pm!!! feeling really nervous this time round… cos a lot of ppl!! Almost full… we were practicing so hard…. For the first time in history… dang lao shi was like.. oh! U all finally know how to do it??! Haha… feel energetic and encouraged… so it was good i think… i mean at least the 4 of us were good… dunno bout the other 2...

the moment the mc announce the opening of our performance… the audience responded quite enthu-ly… got cheering and all that… feel even more encouraged!! Unexpected really..

we rushed this time… really rush… and because we had prepared the headband earlier on it was easier t change the “head”.. o_O we did it fast enough... we even had time to wait… buden again a bit embarrassing la... the stupid light went on and off on and off when it was suppose to be on... what are the ava ppl doing??

Anyway den we just stood for the rest of the performance... we were giggling away... and they say its obvious... *ohno* esp ruiyi.. she was holding on to the fan and of course it was obvious when she giggles... haha even me too… i nearly burst out laughing...

glad that the audience understand what is going on… i thought most of them wont know wat what we were singing about…in the end they understood!! And their response was quite positive… laugh at the right time... cheer at the right time... hope u all have enjoyed it...

When everything ended they cheered really loudly~ feel so encouraged to see that!! I thought it would be very “cold” but luckily wasn’t too bad...

Went backstage... get changed... den got flowers!! Haha... it feels really great when u got so much encouragement and acknowledgement!! So..

: thank you so much!!! I am very happy that u all enjoy the show... i brought them all the way back from spore to msia.. haha… its now lying in my pot… still alive!!! Thanks a million times!! LOVE YA~

actually opera is not dat bad rite?? Kinda funny... and i actually enjoy the whole process of making up and performing and all that… u wont get a chance to do this anymore… so opera is not dat terrible after all. U start to appreciate it after some time...rite??

Yea… holiday now!!! And my dearest harry potter coming soon!!! Whea~

2004-05-27T18:25:00.000-07:00

because of chem journal...

i'm not going to sleep tonight.

performance tomorrow.. looking forward?? i dunno... hope that the audience wont sleep jiu ok le.. i wan flowers!!

k if have time will come back later.

yea.. luvtoro's going home tomorrow!!

2004-05-21T02:07:00.000-07:00

formal dinner in 50 minutes time... and i'm sitll in this super duper ahma shirt... heck.

2day juz got back ca. crap. i'm sad. but i'm happy. sad dat i dint do as well last year... yet happy dat i've tried my best.. wad can one expect when you're in such a crazy class?? at least better dan i had expected. i shall work harder nxt term!!

feeling weird.. n damn her was like "oh, i really forgot..." oh come on. who on earth will forget their marks when she only get it back like... this morning??? ridiculous... dun tell me she doesnt care at all?! if u dun fell like saying, juz tell me. dun gimme this kind of lame excuses.. i'm 14 year old girl, i have brain and i can think... in case u dont know..

wad the. k shall not talk about this kind of thing liao. shall remain cheerful until tmR!! PHYSICS test will be all over in 15hours time... n next... toro!!! i'm going to see him man... whea~

luvtoro's happy. luving toro is a happy thing to do...

2004-05-18T20:08:00.000-07:00

stressed by work and all that... k fine. i had enough.

wanted to talk bout thomas cup in the previous entry.. bud no mood. yeah shall post something now.

u noe i was so excited and all that... when i watching lindan.. he's damn zhuai bud somehow i just like him. he is too zai already... so shuai when he smash lor.. though i pity pater gade. it was a nice game ^_^

n next was a super exciting doubles.. i saw another dream man.. fu hai feng. he was cute when u see from certain angles. cool yet attractive. but i was kinda hoping day denmark could win. by the way, shall mention something here first.. i was taotally siow! i wanted china to win but i want a 3-2 so dat i can see my xiaxuanze.. so the ideal situation would be lindan for the 1st game, denmark for the 2nd, baochunlai for the 3rd, denmark the 2nd doubles. and lastly.... xiaxuanze and he'll definitely win!!

so i was very mao dun.. shouting for china halfway den next game change liao... so crap... but i was just hoping to see him play. really long since i've seen him on tv. maybe at dat time i wasnt even interested in him. very sad. haven seen him play ever since i started to like him... so i was praying real hard... i was so excite when baochunlai won the 2nd singles... everything seemed to come true and the next doubles was sort of a sure win for denmark. so i was not very worried.

n stupid... 15minutes later, the situation was so bad dat erikson and lunggard started to become jin zhang and did so many mistakes! n stupid sang yang and zheng bo were like shouting and looking zhuai for every single point they won. obviously they were getting more confident whereas erikson and lunggard were distracted... bad enough. n i was quite agitated dat ry slept midway. i mean like... halo?? u said u wanted to watch n u slept just like that?? i mean like... this is super duper important!! dont u want to watch xiaxuanze as well??? got quite angry... and really, china won the 2nd doubles.. crap. i was so damn angry but at the same time, feeling happy also la... since they waited really long.. saw xiaxuanze finally when he came out and jumped about after they won!

prize presentation. lindan was at the front. followed by dunno hu. den its XIAXUANZE!! so rox lor! he was kissing the cup... so cute!! ohya... little gossip... saw lindan n his girlfriend (maybe). they were like touching nose when they almost won.. dunno how come the camera man got that... his gf is chio... so i dun mind... heez... well.. like i can mind..

kae... anyway toro coming so i was quite excited... dun bother bout hw at the moment. juz stupid test and the erp. i haven read at all... still got lots man... chinese lecture and pccg later. so very slack.. n i'm RELAX!! thomas cup cheered me up... china deserved it... admit it, they were super strong lor... juz tt i dint get to see my xiaxuanze... nvm... lotsa chances... i'm gonna make sure i see him in the spore opens!! yeah~

whee...luvtoro's happie...at least for this moment...

2004-05-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

Written 17th may 04 (11.35pm) – 18th may 04 (00.25am):

today is a cursed day…today is my worst day… really.. nothing else can be worse than this. i dunno where to begin… i shall start from the morning.

the morning was fine except that i was really sleepy… den the first attack came, bio CA. i knew I wouldn’t score high but I mean like, it still hurts to see such a low score rite.. I thought I was the lowest in class and it was damn obvious that I am one of the few who got a 6something.. coz I was in the middle of some horribly biantai ppl who score like siow! Later I realized I was not the last but wat dat didn’t help either… I’m still low…

Eng lesson… CA… again… I knew definitely it would not be any better than bio but I dint feel too bad la.. I hav to knoe who my teacher is, rite?? That one suan le… at least I feel that I have really put in my best and that I have improved.. and dats enough. Though I was still sad.

I wanted to cry but I juz cant.. I am not easy 2 cry over matter of grades and marks. But I just feel like crying. I hoped that someone can just give me a slap… and jjust make me cry…

Well that’s enough 2 spoil my day. I was so sad all the way until recess… and the nxt lesson, Chinese. I regained a bit after listening to what Helen said to me… she was kinda consoling me. (thanks lots Helen!) den I kinda forgot bout bio liao after I got back my Chinese. I was satisfied… proud... at least not too bad.

The nexy. Chem. () returning our last Saturday’s chem. Testpaper (this is how careful I have to be… not to mention anyone’s name)… rmb.. last Saturday.. which is like 2 days ago. See how terrific she is. Anyway that’s not the point. I was quite worried coz chemistry was already my last resort among the 3 sciences. Bio and physics are needless to say. So I prayed that I dint do too badly and it was up to my satisfaction. Its very ok already, to me, at least. I was satisfied and dint want to compare with anyone else.

Lesson ends, checked my chemistry CA marks. It was good. That’s wat I think. To me. How can I compare with those ppl la.. I can only compare to myself.. as long as it’s good enough and I’ve improved. Good. I’m not like somebody who always

So my day wasn’t that terrible afterall.. though bio and eng were terrible.

So that’s the end of school… still rather cheerful though very stressed up with chem. Journal and all that stuff.

Excited. Having scholars meeting later. Wow… shud be quite nice to chair a meeting. Looking forward to it. Finally started meeting. I feel shuang and it worked out quite alright…

In the middle of the meeting, some… well, I cant say disrespectful… but sort of oblivious and indifferent… people started talking away and I ended up having 2 answer same questions over and over again. I tried to control myself by joking with dem.. using less strict ways 2 ask them 2 keep quiet. In the end I gave out and just stand there until they kept quiet. I dint want to do that. It was so terrible. I looked so fierce and unfriendly. I dun want that! I’m not one of those who is so serious… I can joke I can laugh I can play with u… but all I need is a little more attention when I’m talking… so that we can end this earlier. But they dun understand. It feels super irritating when u talk to yourself and nobody listens. Try it. That feeling is nv understandable unless u experience it. And someone just walked out of the room giving me that pissed off look. Come on. Who’s suppose 2 be more pissed off?? Since u’re so good, why dun YOU come out and chair and scream at the top of your voice juz 2 get ppl’s attention?? Dey simply dun understand.

Enough. It finally ended. And they gave me the relieved expression… what more can I say?? I am juz disappointed and well… feeling so useless..

I was angry of course.. so I spoke “monotonel\y” to dem when they ask me something. They must hav sensed it. Come on… who cant?? I noe they noe n they’re trying 2 make up for it… giving me that guilty look… I just dun care. I shall not throw tantrums at them. I dun want such a awkward situation where we all ended up so bu huan er san.. so I continued 2 talk monotonely… trying to control but at the same time cant control part of my temper too..

I walked back to my room. I knew I wanted to cry already. I just tried to hide away and the moment I was back in room, I cant bear it any longer. I cried uncontrollably.. feeling so dejected and shibai as a leader, so u call. Leader. But I was not exactly sure of what I was crying for. The anger? The disappointment? The feeling of being such a useless leader?? Or is it that I finally could not bear the disappointment with my marks… I don’t know. Maybe all accumulated like a snowball and finally it was too big to be held together anymore… even I do not know.

They sms me. Saying that they feel so guilty and remind me to cheer up… well I was sort of ok.. as long as u noe dat u’re wrong… I’m a soft-hearted person. I have to admit it. So I feel ok though I was still crying. The worst was yet to come…

I got a call from my dad.. I should have known it but I was just too upset to think any further… why else did he call?? I should have known… it is only a matter of sooner or later, my uncle passed away. But why did it come at THIS TIME? This time when I am already so fragile?… I tried to regain myself while talking to dad.. after I hung up… I wanted to cry so badly so badly… but I couldn’t.

What happened??? I couldn’t cry??? No… this shouldn’t be… I mean like I’m already so fragile den another stack comes but I have no feelings at all?? I dunno.. seconds later, ry and pc came in. its only when I saw them dat I started crying again. This time. Really uncontrollably… in front of them. I dunno y… human beings are just weird. Unexplainably weird. They left and den I regained myself again… all the way until now..

K this is super duper long.. 1155 words…

2004-05-14T02:34:00.000-07:00

Chem test is not too hard but I juz hav this feeling that I dint do well… I noe pple are going like… er, come on… if you’re lan, den what am I??? but believe me, I’m not that kind who keh-keh when it comes to test… Good is good. Not good is not good. I’ll just say. I’m not like some other ppl. U know what I mean.

yay!! finally toro's coming...to sign.. waited for so long already. I though he’s not going to come.. gonna kill him. but finally. and heard that xingshu (hu cares) and YUJIE will be coming too!! oh man... finally i get to see yujie (hopeully)... hope that no emergency turns up on dat day..

i'm quite sad actually.. thomas cup.. my dearest person in the whole competition disappointed me… very disappointing in fact. he dint do well. WHY? WHY? WHY? why he did so badly while the doubles did us proud.. very very disappointed.. cant believe i have to wait for another 2 years bfore i can see them in the next thomas cup.. by the time, maybe he is already old... i dun want!! really sad when i see malaysia exit at the quarters just like that... so near yet so far.. i cant hope much more the coming up for olympics. that seems almost impossible since we cant even do well for this one. crap. i shall see how indonesia is beaten terribly by china in the finals.. or rather semi-finals..by debmark. they're strong. i bet indonesia is not going to win looking at how strong china is. lindan, chenhong, baochunlai and most importanty, my XIA XUAN ZE!! go go go!! u're gonna do it man... rmb u promised us last year in the spore open?? You’ll do fine right?? jiayou!! you and choong hann r the best ever..

wanted to talk about something else but juz cant get my mind off badminton. cant stop talking about it. maybe that’s what passion is all about… I miss badminton so much.. just thinking about it excites me.. dunno y… ppl must have thought tt I’m crazy. How can a non-sporty person like ME, goes really crazy about badminton?? so farni.. but I cant explain too. It’s just… I can’t find the word for it. u’ll understand when u really fall in love with something… thing, I mean. I think it’s even more wonderful than falling in love with a person. At least I think so.

So far I only found one person that has the same burning passion for badminton as me… sze. But she’s different, she loves the sport and the point is, she plays it well… that feeling must be wonderful. I love it, I play it, but I dun really play it like, very well… just fair. But it think that’s not the most important thing. The most important thing is the passion for something. It doesn’t mean anything when u play something really well but u dun feel for it.. “follow your heart”..haha. I feel refreshed whenever I get to talk to her about badminton. hope she feels the same too.

This entry is solely dedicated to badminton… and people out there who love it, just like I do.

Loving badminton always…from

2004-05-11T00:07:00.000-07:00

oh man...

thomas cup is going on so excitingly and i have no time for it!! wad kind of badminton fan am i?? crap... i want to watch!! but that's only if malaysia manage to get into the semi or finals!!

i mean... i have full faith and confidence in them...but the situation doesn't seem to favour them.. indonesia or china?? that would be very difficult indeed for us!!

i juz found out that china won yesterday's match... that means that malaysia will be playing against indonesia in the quarters... dangerous... but still hopeful.. indonesia is not as good as last time liao... pls... i shall pray hard man~

malaysia go!!

well, i'm juz too excited over this thing... can't stop talking about it. today got the wad eng speech thingy. and its crap. honestly, none of them is outstanding. juz fair.. well i can't say that i can do better but it juz surprises me of ny gals' standard..

getting less hw these days but getting more worked up with project work!!! which is the worst thing on earth... more hw pls... but no group and preject work and all this stuff... i'm sick~

miss raymond and michelle so much.. when am i going to see them... stupid ts not selling... it better arrive soon or else i will forget about all that happened in the last part... they totally rock!! better den louis and jessica liao... :)
i'm handed over the breakthru thing.. crap newsletter. i gotta make sure that it works well!! to be better than the previous ones which were like... i shall try my best!! phya... a meeting as well..

oops... they're using the lab for cca. crap. n i'm going to have my cca liao. opera. dotz. look forward to our performance though dun look forward to all the practices... i'm going to complain to the school! sunday got cca?? wth. i bet the sch is gonna get HER down if they noe it. they better do. getting more and more disgusted by HER.

lastly, praypray... pls... malaysia will win right??? yes... i know that...

2004-04-29T00:12:00.000-07:00

xia xuan ze rox

2004-04-28T20:19:00.000-07:00

show! ((oo))

like my new layout?? i think itz same as xueling's. nvm. yesterday i was juz browsing through, nothing nice. so juz picked this one. quite ok i thought.

hmm.. going to but zai sheng yuan and energy pencil case today!! argh~cant wait.. n i'm going home this weekend!! yeah... finally...ohno, juz realised dat haven do eng compo yet. due tmr somemore. =S

2004-04-27T23:45:00.000-07:00

对两个相爱的人来说
对方的心才是最美丽的家
我们可以回家了吗？

2004-04-26T19:25:00.000-07:00

Oh man haven blog for super duper long liao...
now is social studies and see what i'm doing!!! muahaha... k i shall blog in chinese!!

昨天发生了一件让我很气的事！我的英文老师竟然不高兴我们看华语新闻！我很想请问她：“你是华人吗？”你是英文老师并不代表你就可以阻止别人看华语新闻啊...那华文老师又该说什么呢？“你们都不准看英语新闻！”这样吗？好矛盾哦！

可能别人会觉得我的反应太大了，但是我就是不喜欢别人侮辱华文，不尊敬华文！我真想告诉她：“拜托！身为一个华人，不懂华文华语，不懂自己的根，才是最羞耻的！”

真快把我气疯了！！怎么会有这种人啊？！

juz had math test... i didnt do 7 marks!! very sad... it didn't look very hard bud i juz freaked out... ended up very jin zhang and didn't noe how to do... aiyo suan le la!! i shall not be so bothered over a few marks... i'm not like SOMEBODY!! k i wan to do some crap now...

我曾经在我的演唱会上
提过这么一个女孩子
是她让我相信我们之间会有奇迹
她告诉我
我和她之间发生过一段感情
但是我喜欢掌声胜过爱她
为了你们
我可以忘记她的存在

其实我说这些话时
心里是很痛的
因为我以为这是对她对每个人最好的方法
--Reno
so touching rite... sobs

2004-02-09T11:21:00.000-08:00

!ShOw & only ShOw!

muahaha... show is damn shuai... going to flood this blog with his photos!!

2004-02-06T00:30:00.006-08:00

actually nothing much 2 sae, juz wanna show u my ShoW! muahaha... i finally found da news on xin ming ri bao!! yeah~ and bleahx.. bad not cuming liaoz, thnx 2 stoooooopid cme hod... n pls lor... she's juz a CME HOD!!! hueva she is, she sux *9*

2004-02-04T23:41:00.000-08:00

itz ShOwtime!

whee~ i finally have a blog here! but still got alot 2 work on, gotta change the template totally, itz so ugly... here'll be much betta den freeopendiary i think... ohya, gt to add tagboard oso..

um.. i'm starting 2 get used to 883.. itz so nice wif all the songs.. n itz super easy 2 call in k!! kinda hope itz not tt popular haha... so more chances 4 us mah!!

heard from there dat BAD having sch concert in ny.. abit hard 2 bliv. sekali dun hav, den all of us so disappointed. i can hardly imagine leh... i mean lyk our hod wont permit one lorh, dey r lyk so old-fashioned.. dun rilly lyk BAD alot, but very nan de 2 get stars 2 cum 2 ur sch.. hoping dat itz true!! bud i'm stil wondering y will dey choose ny?? o_O all along ppl's impression of ny is like so not up-2-date... sighz.

juz realised dat 2dae is 3rd day of OBS for sam & sze liaoz.. faster cum back la!! miss dem so much... haha thanks 2 me, sam & julie love pig so much now! sam even pass me her hp 2 help her vote for pig's song!! wahaha... looking 4ward 2 the nxt issue of i-mag & u-mag... moz probably got us la!! cant imagine... lotsa story 2 tell bout the pig's auto session & airport thingy, buden too long story le, nxt time when i'm free k!!

hate my roommates 4eva... i dun understand how can dey manage 2 be so disgusting... blood stain on the toilet bowl k!!! omg!! i'm going 2 do sth if dey refuse 2 clean up by 2dae... datz too much!! i'm going to threaten dem with MATRON'S WORDS!! grrrrr..... i hate B426 foreva... gross itz so unfair, y everyone hav nice roommates xcept for me??? y m i so suay?? y dey cant study with radio on??? y do dey hav 2 be so dirty?? don't dey have brains??

k, i shall stop toking bout dem... k, i going back 2 "talk" 2 dem liao... bye